The Awakening

It's unbelief.

It's just everything.

I tryta dig way down deep,

But sometimes I find nothin.

Somethin is hauntin,

Somethin is breakin,

Somethin is just keepin me from an awakenin.

The power of it all

Is truly decisive.

But sometimes I feel lost,

And I don't know where God is.

I don't listen,

I don't seek in and

that's why I keep missin

The truth behind this world.

Now I need somethin to believe in.

He's always been there

But sometimes I get scared.

I need to fear Him,

Not thing's of this world.

Thing's of this world

Are simply known,

But God is the only one who has shown

Why there's a purpose to walk in His word.

But not many people listen

That's why we keep missin

Chances that are given

In this life that we live in.

We needa show respect

To the One who never lies.

We needa show respect

To the only One who can give us true eyes.

We needa look inside our heart.

We needa bring thing's out.

It's never too late

Cuz God always has our part.

He's waitin for us to show ourselves.

He has a plan for us.

Without God, nothin is possible.

Nothin will ever be plausible.

Of course, I've had my days

When nothin seemed to be right.

I had my days when there seemed to be no light.

I disrespected, I dishonored.

I never listened to the Father.

I thought I had thing's planned

But my way just seemed harder.

I wanted thing's my way,

I wanted worldly pleasures.

I thought the path was bright,

But soon thing's were just too tall to measure.

My ruler never long enough.

I thought my heart was tough.

But it seemed to just keep breakin down,

And I found myself cryin on the ground.

Prayin, "Lord, get me outta here."

"Lord, forgive me please."

"Lord, look. I am beggin on my knees."

"This fear is just too rough. It brings so much pain."

"I wanna be the humble lamb, not the wolf who's gettin slain."

I tried to search my heart,

I wanna know where to restart.

I don't wanna live in deepness.

I don't wanna fall apart.

I only look to You now,

And I wanna learn and seek how

You work your problems out.

I don't wanna live by my rules.

I don't wanna mess around.

I wanna put my life in your hands.

I wanna be up off this ground.

Live in Your kingdom, breathe Your air.

I wanna see what You see

And raise up out this chair.

This chair that I'm sittin in,

Does me no good.

Just like the way I live in this hood.

I ain't no child of the world.

I ain't wanna be no visitor to Your realm.

I wanna be apart of Your gift, not with them.

I need that veil to be taken away.

I needa revolution in this city today.

Cuz I've cried out my lungs,

My thoughts think in shame

Of how thing's been goin

But I know I've been to blame.

I thought I had thing's made for me,

I thought I was free.

But I didn't know that there was somethin

I couldn't see.

My parents are everythin,

My friends, my siblings.

To honor your mother and your father

Will reward you with a promise.

And I'll be seekin that promise.

I'll wait for God's commands.

I'll wait for His word,

Til thing's hit land.

But now I understand.

Worldly thing's were never made for me.

They are only there to see if I'll be a free-be.

Will I choose His path or not.

I'd only know on my judgement day,

If I chose his life, or a life made my own way.

So now you know what you been missin,

Now you know what to listen to.

I learned that whenever I need him,

I got Him to lead me through.

Now I finally understand.

Now I know I've hit land.

Now I finally see,

That the only God who'll take me flyin is Jesus Christ, The King.

April 18, 2010

Love In the Sky

Sunny side.

Lookin towards the skies.

I can feel a breeze

Feelin like love is in the air.

Sunny side, oh sunny, sunny skies.

I can feel love in the air.

Midnight side.

Lookin towards the night sky.

I can see the stars,

In the pattern of your brown eyes.

Sunny side, or either midnight skies.

I can feel the love in the air.

April 19, 2010

Originally Written: December 21-24, 2008

Revised Version

My Backyard Swing

My mind is like a pen.

It keeps on writing, thinking.

No matter what it is,

I thoroughly think it out.

My mouth is like paper,

It transfers my message, my ideas.

I observe.

I question.

I have the knack to figure things out.

I may not be the best at it,

But I'll work around it,

Over it and possible swim under

Its bridge.

Somehow I'll get over that ridge,

No matter what.

I'll run pass a moving train,

I will fly across Jupiter's moons.

I'll perform my heart out on a Broadway stage,

I'll write it out, then turn the page.

My feet will burn, they'll explode me into the sky.

My hands will freeze and I'll save the world,

One at a time.

I'll perform Beethoven and not forget

A single note.

I'll make a ballad out of my writings

So I'll never forget the thing's I wrote.

Never forget the thing's I'll write.

Remember those special, glorious nights.

I'm invincible, no one can take me down.

I'll break through walls, barriers.

Fly alongside a bird, I'll be a pigeon carrier.

I'll take the mail from the pigeon

And fly so fast like a storm with rage.

I'll write it out, then turn my page.

Here I am, on my backyard swing.

Observing the sky above me.

Looking past the clouds, the planes,

The stars, Earth's atmosphere.

Already believing that I have everything here.

April 19, 2010

Bloom

Like a flower in the rain.

It suffers the pain

Of downpour.

Its petals become sore.

Feels like it needs no more.

But soon, the sun arises.

The flowers' soil is moistened.

The flower gains strength.

It grows.

The flower blooms.

It just assumed

Its future.

But its colors surfaced.

It was beautiful.

Colorful, just wonderful.

A Night in Athens

Seventy-one degrees.

By eight it's dark.

Orion sits in the sky.

Waiting for the lightning bugs to fly.

69 degrees.

The breeze,

It's fulfilling.

This summer weather makes

Everything worth living

For. I see no downpour.

The night sky is dark blue.

It makes the stars shine bright.

Makes thing's a bit more peaceful tonight.

Nature's love surrounds me.

It shows me things I can't see

During the daylight.

Now the stars align.

This world from the trampoline,

It all feels like it's mine.

Feels as if it is for me to define.

65 degrees.

It's 8:30 p.m.

The crystals of the sky are like a gem.

They allow me to dream.

They allow me to think.

As I look into the sky,

They allow me to feel as if I'm flying.

It's death-defying,

It's such a rush.

61 degrees.

It's five til nine.

I begin to think of the thing's that make

My world shine.

Night skies that allow me to define it

Beautiful.

April 25, 2010

I'm No Writer

I'm no writer.
Creativity never fits me.
Rhythm and rhyme abandon me.
My eyes can't see.
My personality is blind.
I don't know what I look like.
All I can be is this.

I don't sing.
I'm never going to.
I'm always off tune, beat.
I can't write songs.
I try, but the notes turn out all wrong.
Lyrics too detailed, too long.
I'll never have a song.
Music is never a talent when
Placed on me.
I don't know how to express.
These are all the thing's I can't be.

I'm uncoordinated.
My feet don't stay planted.
I always lose in sports.
I can never look good in shorts.
I misinterpret.
I'm never alert.
I'm always afraid.
I have the fear of getting hurt.
Sports aren't me.
This is everything I won't be.

I'm no writer.
I've never been able to sing.
Sports aren't everything.
I'm not inspiring.

And even though I'm not
Any of these things.
I have to push through.
I'm not complete,
But I am with You.


April 25, 2010

Hero Down

Potential.
Risk, danger.
She's their avenger.
She's taking on the world.
Fighting the battles.
Fighting the enemies.
They see her as 
A remedy.
This is the story.
She's from a small town.
Scarred yet motivated.
She is believed to have innovated
The city.
She's been given the key.
They trust in her to keep
Them safe.
To keep them protected.
But what's in her heart?
Is she given love and affection?


April 25, 2010