A Place To Be

Past my window is life.
Past my eyes is time.
Looking back at my door,
I pushed my thoughts for more.
What can I do?
Where can I go?
Who will I turn to?

Inside my head is just me.
No one else knows my thoughts.
And just between me and my heart,
I wonder, "Who can I be?"

Because past my window
There's something more.
Past my eyes
Is a new direction.

I'm not looking for perfection,
Maybe just a place where
I can be worth something.

June 3, 2011

Homeless

The night's cold and I've
Nowhere to go.
Shadows follow my every move.
In the middle of this road I stand
With nothing in my hand,
Confused,
Abandoned,
Helpless.
Why ain’t there no light?
Why this city so down?
I'm here now,
Lyin’ on this cold, hard ground.
My stomach, neglected,
My fingers, frozen.
My clothing, limited.
Nothin’ to protect my head,
That’s why I lay hopeless on these
Stone steps instead.
Seems as if my life ain’t permitted.
My thoughts, my feelings, my doings,
Omitted.
I ask,
"Why, God?
Can't you help me?
I'm tired,
Hungry.
I’ve no work,
Yet I ain't free."
Some things just ain't right,
I'm sittin’ here alone tonight
Not wantin’ things
To be the same tomorrow.
The stares and the glares,
They ain’t nothin’ but pity.
Seems as if there's nothin’ left
On this Earth, ‘cept me,
Even if I do see faces all around,
Life ain’t where I’m bound.
They don't take the time to help my needs.
I'm telling you,
It’s just me.

August 3, 2010

Inferior

As the mourning waves crash

Over the rocks and crying shores,

The fading sunlit heaven seems

To be closing in.

My heart feels as if 

It just can't be held in,

Held just to set a beat.

It wants to run free,

Like how my dying feet

Used to be.

Seems as though the

Rain falls above my shoulders

Just to cleanse these weeping boulders.

Frail, blunt, abject.

The eyes of the storm, 

And the words of the whimpering crows,

Finally silences as skies drift in for a worthless night. 

Non-needed, abilities receded.

This is the life of open strife.

Torn down barriers,

Waves crashing in towards your land.

Yet not even one lends an amending hand.

August 10, 2010

Degrees

If there was a place

To hide my face,

Where no one could

See my mistakes,

Maybe things would

Be better.

I could write them

A letter

And say that

I was just ready to run.

My shadows don't show

Under the sun.

If there was a place to hide my face,

I could hide there forever.

Just until my life was measured,

Fully,

Just until my life knew

What to look forward too.

Satisfy me.

I don't want to follow my own shadow.

I want my shadow to follow me,

In any high degree. 

My face could hide,

And others could be set free.

August 27, 2010

I Can Manage

Even in the deepest thought,

Even within my deepest emotions,

I cannot seem to find

What I've been looking for.

I can't seem to find

My problems, mistakes

I've made.

I want to sit and cry,

And have no one hear

The pain.

I don't want them 

To hear this song

And think it's by someone

Who's not strong.

I cry alone to just manage myself.

I don't wanna be saved.

I don't wanna cry for help.

I'm just to myself,

So no one else can get affected, too.

I just wanna push through.

Even in these deepest thoughts,

Even in these terribly deep moments,

I'm gonna put a smile on,

And assure to everyone,

I am strong.

August 30, 2010

Never Your Last Battle

I'm off this battlefield,

I'm done with fighting,

Being defied by higher ranks.

I've found my base,

And that's where I'll stay.

But I'm gonna try my hardest

To fight through this one

Last battle though.

Even though most of the

War is through,

Even though I'm

Walking home new,

There may still be obstacles

On the road home.

I'm off the battlefield,

But I still needa find

My way and know where to go.

The end is never final.

September 8, 2010

Standing On a Broken Stone

Save me from these waves

That overpass my head.

I can try to manage myself,

But I'd rather have help instead.

They're too strong for my weak body,

And everytime I try to stand,

They crash over me.

I fall, and I cry.

What will it take for me

To finally see a bright sky?

September 22, 2010

And So They Smile

Because it's every hero's right

To bleed every once in a while.

Their strength isn't invincible,

So who's gonna come save them

When their life's in need?

Yet, they'd rather not bleed,

So they hide behind the strength they have left

And smile.

They never let their world down.

Not even if their feet won't

Leave the ground.

Even if they feel they can't fly.

They never wanna show

That they are weak.

Even if they're the ones in need,

They don't wanna bleed,

They don't wanna cry,

They don't wanna let us know

They need help once in a while.

So they hide behind the strength they have left

And they smile.

September 26, 2010

The Hero I Can Be

I can be there for you.

I can be there for this world.

But I can't be everywhere 

At once.

I fight off the bad

And bring in what's best.

But yet, I need my rest,

Too.

I don't wanna feel through.

But who's coming to save me?

I'm fighting the battles,

I'm facing future scars,

I'm bleeding,

I'm wounded.

Why am I misunderstood and

Why can't I find help too?

I may be a hero,

But I'm not super.

If you need me,

I can be there.

But first I need to tie my hair,

Put on my mask and shoes,

Because the last thing I wanna do

Is lose,

And them come after me

And the ones I love.

Under this mask,

I'm not free.

But I still do the best I can

To be the hero everyone wants me to be.

Sept 28, 2010

I Say To Myself

I tell myself not to cry

But it's killin me on the inside

My heart beats,

But it's unsure.

I'm broken,

Tell me, where's the cure?

"Wipe the tears

From my eyes.

Show the world

That you're strong.

Stand up straight,

Lift your chin,

Even if things

Are crashing in,"

I say

To myself.

I say I'm clean,

My mind's serene.

This is what I wanna

Believe.

But open doors

Still shut closed.

Where are my choices?

Why haven't I chose?

"Wipe the tears

From my eyes.

Show the world

That you're strong.

Stand up straight,

Lift your chin,

Even if things

Are crashing in,"

I say

To myself.

Be like a flower

Blooming in the spring.

Time to listen

And time to win.

Win back fights

That were meant

To be mine.

Don't let no enemy

Tell you otherwise.

Show them you won't cry,

Tell them it's not killin you

On the inside.

Let your heart run,

Say you're sure,

That you're not broken

And that you've found a cure.

Sept 28, 2010